I proclaim this here and now: I do not want to fall in love until I don’t feel like I need it.
If I desperately feel a deep need to be loved, I don’t think it is the right kind of love.
If I feel the NEED for love, what am I really looking for?
Am I looking for a person to fill something within in me that I feel that I am missing, that I need?
Am I feeling insecure? Bad about myself? Like I need man validation? I’m lonely? Someone to keep me warm at night?
Well, those don’t seem like good reasons to fall in love.
I don’t want to need anyone to fill any of those needs in my life. I want to feel 100%, super awesome, happy, fulfilled, and good about myself as me.
If I am looking for someone to fulfill a need of mine, I am not ready to give them the love that they deserve, nor am I ready to receive a healthy love either.
I don’t want us to both need love, but be ready to just be love, share love, and be able to be the best love. The giving love. Not the selfish love.
I want to accept the unselfish love, let it wash over me, and let it lift my whole being up. Whole being the key word. Then I will be able to absorb it, feel it, cherish it, love the love, and send it right back out.